Hindsight is Twenty/Twenty

read at your own risk (this goes for all logs to follow). i'm not responsible if your feelings get hurt and i also want to just say that i'm not writing to impress anyone... this is a journal so its fine if you don't agree.

today alternated between great and suck. work was fine until i dropped a girl's bank card down a slit in the juice cooler. obviously an accident. the problem was that the cooler was frozen (i know this is confusing but stay with me) so we turned it off and had to wait until it thawed to open it. thankfully that did happen about an hour later and also thankfully she works in the same building as i do. a colleague ran it over to her.

work wears me out. i really do like all the people i work with and i like seeing familiar faces each day as they come in for coffee and a muffin/scone/cookie/bar or sandwich. it just gets tiring.

i got home and my attitude went south. last night i talked with my roommate jess on the phone and we kind of decided to do something out of the house tonight because i feel like all i do is work and bum around the house. so i get home excited and what do i find? no one. no one was home for like 20 minutes and then when jess and tanya walked in from shopping they announced that they were going to a movie at 9.40.
it's great to make plans to make plans (that double phrase isn't a type-o) and then just have an option to go do what they're doing or not.
needless to say, i chose to not go with them tonight, not because i'm pouting... ok maybe i am, but mostly just because i need to breathe.

i need friends outside of this house.

i came here to live in community and to catch a glimpse of urban life and how i can be involved in it. i feel like i don't really have community with the girls in my house (then again, maybe thats absurd because i don't have a choice. we are community.) because we don't seem to click. i need other outlets, i know that for sure.